Jelaine's Christmas Eve Adventure

December 24 -- anniversary ko. Eight years na kami ng mahal kong jowawis na si Millie. Hassle lang at sa sobrang magkabaligtaran ang schedule namin, gumising ako paguwi niya ng alas dos ng madaling araw para "mag-celebrate." Translation, nanuod kami ng paborito naming Jeopardy at natulog ulit ako.

Pagpasok sa opisina ng alas siete, pumped na pumped akong magtrabaho. At the same time, gusto ko na agad umuwi. Holiday mode na kasi ang lahat ng tao. Kahit antok na antok na ako, pinilit kong tapusin lahat ng trabaho for the week. Minsan lang naman mag-4-day holiday. At dahil tsinismisan pa ang ako ng friend kong si W tungkol sa kanyang masalimuot na lovelife, past 7pm na ako nakaalis ng opisina. At dahil sira ang ulo ko, I decided on the last minute na gusto ko palang maghanda ng dessert at i-oven instead na i-grill ang salmon na katerno ng couscous. So dumaan pa ako ng supermarket. Kahit medyo maraming tao, sandali lang ako doon at nakaalis agad. Naloka lang ako dahil ang haba ng pila sa taxi. I figured, 'Adventure 'to... Bus na lang ulit.'

I've never taken the bus that late. Hindi ko alam kung standing room na ba o kung ma-trapik, lalo na ngayong bisperas. Keblar. I need to go home now. Swerte naman, may upuan sa unahan. Weird lang dahil talagang deadma sa akin ang konduktor. 'Ayos 'to. Ma-try ngang mag-123.' Bumaba na't lahat ang mamang katabi ko, deadma pa rin sa akin ang konduktor. 'Aba, mukhang makakalusot a.' Kahit halos wala nang sasakyan sa daan, syempre, hindi kasali duon ang EDSA. At dahil wala akong suot na contact lens, nagmistulang Christmas lights ang mga tail lights ng mga nakapilang sasakyan sa na nagsisiksikan sa EDSA, nag-uunahang makauwi para sa Noche Buena. Maya-maya, sumakay ang isang babae. Malapit na akong bumaba. Hmmm... deadma rin s'ya. Ayaw pang magbayad. By this time, medyo nagui-guilty na ako. 'Ano ba 'yan, Php11 na nga lang, mag-123 pa ba?' Pagdating ng Shangri-la, kinalabit ng babaeng ang konduktor pagbalik n'ya sa harap. 'Hmph! Sige na nga, magbabayad na ako.' Mantakin no 'yun, malapit na akong bumaba, makonsensya pa ako?! Naisip ko, ipa-laminate ko kaya ang lekat na tiket ng bus? Tanda na hindi nga 'ata talaga ako pwedeng maging hustler. Oh well, I'll try again next time. Ma-try lang kahit minsan. Hehehe!

Pagbaba ng Megamall, sarado na. Hindi na nagpapalusot palabas sa kabilang side. actually, 7pm pa sila sarado. So umikot pa ang beauty ko hanggang makarating sa terminal ng shuttle. Pagdating ko doon, wala na halos mga sasakyan. Walang shuttle, pero maraming pila. Uh-oh. 'May babalik pa kaya???' Panic mode on. 'Magluluto pa ako!!!' I'm stuck. Nowhere to go. Naghihingalo pa ang baterya ng cell phone. Syempre, para mas maganda daw ang effect, umaambon! Hassle. Nag-text ako sa asawa ko para magreklamo, sa nanay ko para magbilin at sa tatay ko para sana sunduin ako. Nilibang ko na lang ang sarili sa kakabilang ng kung ilang oras na lang ako meron para mag-set ang gelatin at sa pagpaplano ng kung ano'ng uunahing gain paguwi ko. Pagkaraan ng ilang balik ng mga shuttles, nakasakay na rin ako sa wakas.

Tuloy pa rin ako pagtetext sa van. Feeling executive chef akong nagbibilin sa nanay ko ng mga pwede na n'yang gawin habang wala pa ako. Sinagot ko ang tawag ng erpats ko at parang teenager na nag-report kung nasaan na ako. Sabay balita rin sa asawa ko ng mga kakatwang pangyayari ng gabi para naman matawa sa halip na ma-bad trip. Muntik pang madisgrasya ang lekat na shuttle -- twice. Ci-nut ng sira ulong taxi, at siningitan ng suicidal na nakamotor. Sabay tingin ko naman sa bintana sa kaliwa to find a car... and it's bumper several meters away. 'Ayos... Merry Christmas sa inyo.'

Makaraan ng prosisyon (meaning, traffic) sa may Sta. Lucia at isang sakay ng tricycle, nakauwi rin ako sa wakas. Hapit sa luto ang beauty ko! Fortunately, things ended well at successful naman ang aming hamak na Christmas dinner.

Sulit naman ang adventure. Naisip ko, baka naging boring pa ang pasko ko kung hindi dahil doon... kaya check na rin! :)

I will never cram for Christmas dinner ever again

This year, I wanted to try something new. Steamed/buttered (haven't decided yet) veggies with portobello mushrooms and salmon over couscous (left). Thing is, I've never tried cooking couscous before! I've been planning to do a dry run prior to Christmas dinner but I always have something to go to or something to do that I just realized yesterday that I only have a couple of days to decide if I'm really going to do it or change the entire menu. You see, if there's only four of you, preparing a big, fancy Xmas feast isn't really necessary. All you really need is a starter, a really 'different' and filling entrée, a good bottle of wine and you can even do without dessert! Trust me, it'll only frustrate you if you cook more than that for four people. A lot of it will be left uneaten, only to be placed in microwaveable containers or kept in saran wraps for tomorrow's lunch. Yes, there was a bit of bitterness there.

For the past holidays (i.e. Xmas, New year, birthdays), we have been eating steak as per my wife and mom's request. This year, fish trumps beef. Yes, I made the decision to have salmon this year. I know, I know, there's nothing really 'wow' about salmon, we even eat salmon for Sunday lunch... but hey, I'm tired of scrubbing the stove-top grill after dinner! I'm thinking, we'd have less dishwashing time if we have fish instead. Hehehe! After all, it's our anniversary, if you know what I mean. *Wink*

Three or four years ago, my wife and I ended up doing kitchen duty pretty much the whole day. We had pumpkin soup, my famous jumping mushrooms and probably pasta, I'm not sure. It was a nightmare! Pretty much everything needed a lot of prep time and actual cooking time. To make things worse, my parents came over at least an hour earlier than our agreed time. Then of course, there's the dishwashing problem. Ugh! Worse anniversary ever. Never want that to happen again!

This year, I made another mistake... Well, hopefully it doesn't go all the way until tomorrow evening. I just made a little mistake with the scheduling, you know, with no dry run whatsoever. So today, I had to rush to Rustan's to buy some feta cheese and apparently, they've stopped selling the brand we normally buy. To make things worse, I wasn't sure if the brand I saw was feta. I then had to go to Shopwise. Saw the same brand, did a bit of research (thank god, my GPRS was working!) and confirmed that it IS feta. I also got a kilo of salmon, some veggies (my father's request), portobello mushrooms and, as per my wife's request, good ol' Xmas ham (We can't even remember what we had last year! How pathetic is that???) Oh, and stupid me even had to research on how green onions look like! I swear, I'd shop earlier next year, even do a dry run if I'm trying a new recipe, just to make sure everything goes well.

In fairness, my friend at work said the recipe looks easy enough. Yeah, I agree. I just don't want to serve crap, you know... especially to my family! LOL Wish me luck tomorrow evening! Hopefully, everything goes well. Watch out for pictures! =)

P.S.
As if my day wasn't crazy enough, I'm still thinking of adding a last minute dessert on the menu. Hehehehe! Now seriously, do you think I can pull this dinner off???

My Christmas Literary Wishlist

I went to National Bookstore today to check on a kris-kringle gift for the office and it just hit me... I miss reading Philippine literature! Well, I just realized now that I don't read any other kind of literature except for our very own. I guess, when it comes to literature, I like the local flavor more -- kind of weird because I hate Pinoy movies and TV shows, which is pretty much literature on screen.

Anyway, as in -- the feeling was overwhelming. I was like a kid in a candy store! I can't believe how much I've been missing a lot of Zafra and Remoto's works. I want to buy them all and catch up on my reading, especially with gay lit! LOL I was thrilled because I also saw that they've reprinted Eraserhead's FRUITCAKE! Ugh! Then I saw Ricky Lee's first novel, "Para Kay B." Now at that point, I can no longer help myself... I've already walked walked out of the store but decided to go back and grab a copy! LOL I love that guy! I also have his scriptwriting manual, "Trip to Quiapo."

So here's my Christmas Literary Wishlist, solely based on today's trip to National Bookstore. Hopefully, I can start getting them one by one next year... I think I can do that, as long as I cut down on my coffee and bagel!!! LOL

• Ladlad 1-3 by Danton Remoto (Used to have the first book, but I don't know where it is now. Even called Des in Dubai to ask if she has it! Crazy bitch!)
  
• Gaydar by Danton Remoto
• Fruitcake by The Eraserheads (edited by Jessica Zafra -- it was that time when she was managing them)
  
• Twisted 7 (written as Tw7sted) and 8 (Night of the Living Twisted) by Jessica Zafra
• 500 People You Meet in Hell by Jessica Zafra

I'm in love with a gay guy!

Yeah, I know that title sounded a lot like a tabloid headline. LOL Sorry about that! Can't help it! See that hot guy? That's Brian Kinney from Queer As Folk -- a gay show that ran for five seasons from 2000-2005 -- at least its US version. However, the show was originally from the UK where it ran until 2000. Millie and I have been addicted to QAF and have been doing DVD marathons every chance we get. We're such fag hags!

Brian Kinney was played by Gale Harold, who is now known as Susan Myers' love interest in another hit TV show, Desperate Housewives. Today, I surfed the net for some Brian Kinney stuff and inevitably stumbled upon Gale Harold news. I was so shocked to know that he recently had a motorcycle accident on 14Oct08 for which he was briefly in Intensive Care due to some swelling in the brain and a fractured shoulder. Fortunately, I also found several follow-up news that he's on his way to full recovery. Whew! That'll be a major heartbreak if anything happens to my Brian! I pretty much had a similar experience when I had a crush on reality TV star, Rachel Brown from the second season of Hell's Kitchen. I later on read on the web of her sudden death.

Anyway, I am yet to develop a crush on straight man, Gale Harold. He's really adorable though, stuttering and being lost for words during interviews. I like his outspoken, unapologetic gay persona more. He's so f*cking hot that way. LOL

A surprise for some select people

I sent a surprise to several important people in my life... Considering that no one has tried to contact me yet, I think it's safe to say that no one has seen it yet.

Tick tock, tick tock...

Let's see who'll be the first to crack... And the waiting begins...

Meeting up with My Oldest Girlfriends

I can't believe this is actually happening! I'm prepping to go out and mett up with two of oldest gal pals, Tessa and Maia. We haven't seen each others in probably 8 to 10 fucking years and now here we are! I'm soooooooo elated!!! Things are really getting better and better...!!!

Love This Day!

Millie and I should be in Iloilo today for a 3-day adventure. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to get a leave since I just transferred to another account/department and I'm the ony QA there. We're still in transition so everything is pretty critical. Fortunately, a lot of things went my way today, so I don't really feel bad about not being in Iloilo.

To start off, my day at work was very productive. I was very surprised at the amount of work I was able to accomplish today, actually.

I also got my Starbucks Planner today. Yeah, I know it's not as pretty as the older ones, but heck! Starbucks and I have this thing. Let's just say, I have their giant tumbler and their body bag and I never missed a planner. *Wink*

After work -- now, that's when I had the most fun. I have this new buddy at work, Z and we went to Timezone in Megamall. We were pretty pleased that our hundred bucks (each) got us farther than we expected. We probably played for an hour and a half or so. I think our arms will really hurt tomorrow. We played this new game, Rambo, basketball, Daytona2, Guitar/Drum Mania, Dance Mania something -- it was like doing a cardio workout! Hehehe! Oh and by the way, we also saw the rock legend, Pepe Smith. I teased Z about taking his picture with Pepe Smith. I think that's a really dorky thing to do! Hahaha!

After he left, I still stayed to wander around and do a bit of errands. I saw the Scale Model Competition where I intend to bring my wife on Thursday. At around 5PM, I finally decided to call it a day. Amazingly, the shuttle service going my way was already starting to get filled with passengers. At only Php40, I was home around 6PM, which was relatively quick considering the 5PM rush.

So there, another happy day for me. Can't wait to have more fun tomorrow. I'm thinking of going to Toy Kingdom next time. Hehehe! =) My life just seems to get better and better everyday... =)

Love This Day!

Millie and I should be in Iloilo today for a 3-day adventure. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to get a leave since I just transferred to another account/department and I'm the ony QA there. We're still in transition so everything is pretty critical. Fortunately, a lot of things went my way today, so I don't really feel bad about not being in Iloilo.

To start off, my day at work was very productive. I was very surprised at the amount of work I was able to accomplish today, actually.

I also got my Starbucks Planner today. Yeah, I know it's not as pretty as the older ones, but heck! Starbucks and I have this thing. Let's just say, I have their giant tumbler and their body bag and I never missed a planner. *Wink*

After work -- now, that's when I had the most fun. I have this new buddy at work, Z and we went to Timezone in Megamall. We were pretty pleased that our hundred bucks (each) got us farther than we expected. We probably played for an hour and a half or so. I think our arms will really hurt tomorrow. We played this new game, Rambo, basketball, Daytona2, Guitar/Drum Mania, Dance Mania something -- it was like doing a cardio workout! Hehehe! Oh and by the way, we also saw the rock legend, Pepe Smith. I teased Z about taking his picture with Pepe Smith. I think that's a really dorky thing to do! Hahaha!

After he left, I still stayed to wander around and do a bit of errands. I saw the Scale Model Competition where I intend to bring my wife on Thursday. At around 5PM, I finally decided to call it a day. Amazingly, the shuttle service going my way was already starting to get filled with passengers. At only Php40, I was home around 6PM, which was relatively quick considering the 5PM rush.

So there, another happy day for me. Can't wait to have more fun tomorrow. I'm thinking of going to Toy Kingdom next time. Hehehe! =) My life just seems to get better and better everyday... =)

Sorta like a four-day weekend

I sort of had a 4-day weekend this week. We had 'Spa Thursday' and watched the finale of TARA3, which only broke my heart but because neither one of the teams that I like won. Friday, Millie and I went on a date. We had dinner at Dad's (we missed their buffet!) and ended up watching 'Burn After Reading' instead of 'The Women.' Yesterday, I spent the day cleaning our room, which I haven't finished doing, by the way, but it's cool because I'm planning to do some changes, which I think would take a bit of time. And now, well, today was really boring because I woke up with the meanest headache and Millie has one too, so she skipped worked today to rest. It's probably the weather again because it's warmer today than it was yesterday. Anyway, I'm not sure if I'm ready for another big work week tomorrow. I feel tired and my headache hasn't really gone away. Ugh! This sucks! Oh well, that's me this weekend... Totally looking forward to the next one.

What I Love About Change

I recently went through several changes in my life. I stepped outside my comfort zone and left my beloved VB family to pursue my one true love -- Quality -- even it means being alone to join a new team. I've been blest since then... I found new friends who are not only great to work with, but who are also fun to be with when we're not agents, coaches, QAs, trainers or OMs. They made me feel right at home, especially when I'm missing my VB family. It's kind of creepy sometimes how I see my VB family in my new DS team.

In spite of my schedule being terribly early at 3AM, and now at 5AM, I'm finding a lot of things that I can do that's making me happier each day. Because I get off work early in the afternoon, I've been able to spend time in malls -- doing errands and practically just wandering around, with a bit of shopping here and there. I also get to go on dates with my Mom and Dad. I especially love spending time with my Dad while he works -- like checking on the stores, buying construction supplies -- brings back memories of my childhood. I love our silly conversations during the ride, how we will laugh so hard over the most senseless ideas and the corniest jokes until we're teary-eyed and coughing. I also love it when my Mom treats me like a kid, buying me food or scolding me for the silly things I do. I can't believe these things are still happening at my age!

Though Millie and I only get to spend a few hours a week together, I love how we plan the times we'll be together and end up breaking them. It is as if we've become more spontaneous and just go with the flow. I love that I get to go online and download music or read about stuff I won't normally have time to read about and well, write blog entries to share my thoughts to the world, regardless if anyone is interested. As weird as it may sound, I sometimes feel like I'm a student again -- taking public transport and making stopovers to buy isaw or pritong leeg ng manok or pares. Everyday has become an adventure for me.

Times like these, I can't help but be in awe at how amazing life can be -- always full of lovely surprises that are waiting to be discovered as long as you're willing to take a plunge to the unknown every once in a while...

Can Hardly Wait

I'll be seeing my beloved VB family this coming Friday and I'm so excited!!!

Tomorrow, Millie and I are planning to have a spa evening, afterwhich we'll be watching the finale of TARA3 (Go Geoff and Tish!). On Friday, we're finally pushing through with our movie date and of course, we're going to the much-awaited VB ResFest!!! Yahooooooo!!! \o/ \o/ \o/

Stupid Mistake of the Day

I said the wrong thing to the jeepyney driver and got off the wrong stop. I then ended up on the wrong side of the bridge so I had to walk such a fucking distance. I may have traversed the entire stretch of A. Rodriguez Avenue from Rosario to Ligaya -- or at least it felt like it -- just to get a ride toward the correct route.

After two hours from leaving the office, I finally made it home extremely exhausted. I pigged out and now I'm bitching about it. In an hour or so I'd be hitting the sack, afterwhich I'll be waking up in 6hrs to prepare myself for another shift at work. 9hrs after logging in, I'd once again figure out a way to get home if no one's going to get me. By then, I certainly hope I've learned and not do this stupid thing again. F*cker!

If I Say Goodbye

Will I ever really mean it?
Will you let me go?
Will it be my biggest mistake?
Will it be the biggest favor I'd do for myself?
Will it hurt?
Will I get over it?
Will it change me?
Will it change your mind?
Will I regret it?
Will you celebrate?
Will you cry?
Will you care?
Will I really say goodbye?

Weekend's Over

Unbelievable! It's almost 6PM again, which means I have to sleep for my Monday morning shift at 5AM. Oh well, can't complain. My weekend was fun. I attended the International Roming Launch on Friday, had great fun prepping for the party with my friend, Z, and still had time to watch a couple of Queer As Folk episodes with my wife. Saturday, I spent doing some errands and buying some of my favorite food -- peachy-peachy, microwavable popcorn, beef pares and isaw! My wife and I then continued our QAF marathon with yummy popcorn and ice cold iced tea. Today, I woke up late, and spent the afternoon organizing my iTunes playlists for my would-be iPod. Could be better with a massage, but I find that it's a bit late, plus I've already spent my spa money on all the junk food yesterday. Hehehe! Nonetheless, I think I'm ready for another crazy work week ahead!

My Epiphany Along Pioneer Street

Nakakatawa
Bigla ka na lang naalala
Dahil siguro sa lugar
Mangyari ay medyo pamilyar
Paano nga kaya
Kung biglang magkita?
Kunyaring hindi ka kilala
Magpapanggap pa nga ba?
Iba na ako ngayon
Pero pareho pa rin ng noon
Sa ilang taong lumipas
Natapos rin sa wakas
Yamot, galit, panghihinayang
Ikaw lahat ang sumayang
Wala na tayong babalikan
Walang kapatid, walang kaibigan

Excited

I've been preparing for this. Finally, it's all about me and what I want. I can hardly wait!!! Things are bound to change... I'm so f*cking ready!!!

I have a new thing

I have a new thing...

My new thing is all about trying new things. This week, I've been crazy downloading relaxation music -- the kind you listen to in spas while having a refreshing facial or a soothing full-body massage. My wife and I are experimenting on listening to them while we sleep... We are yet to try it this coming weekendn though. Currently, I have 7hrs worth of instrumental music -- piano, classical guitar, harp, flute, pan pipe, you name it, I have it. Yup, even the sounds of nature like that of birds chirping and waterfalls and the ocean waves crashing. (If anyone's interested, just message me! )

Recently, I've also embraced my inner kikay. Well, actually, it's more of letting my inner kikay out. My inner kikay has been on hibernation mode for the past several years. Looking back, it must've started when work got busy and I started to be serious with it. Now, I've been buying some stuff for my face, I've been having more facials, foot spas, mani-pedis, massages... I finally admitted that I love these things and stopped feeling guilty for overspending on myself. I reckon, I work hard 5 f*cking days a week. The least I can do is treat myself to something that will make me feel better, right? For the past years, I've been depriving myself of these 'guilty pleasures' -- how crazy is that?! Now, I'm feeling more energized and pumped to get through my work week regardless of how stressful it gets. In fact, I've been highly-productive since I started these weekend treats. I guess spending on myself is finally paying off! Hahahaha!

Lastly, I've been more daring to try things I don't normally like doing. Perfect example -- travelling by public transport. A couple of things I hate about commuting are losing my personal space and being exposed to less than desirable smells. One thing I love about it though is being able to do stopovers! It's the perfect excuse to 'pass by' the mall or to 'chance upon' my favorite street foods! Yum-o! Trust me, those gastronomical excursions and occasional window shopping makes all the hassles worth it.

Which CSI Miami Character Are You?

This was a bit unexpected but I'm very pleased nonetheless. Adter all, she's one of the smartest ladies on TV, so why complain? :)

Which CSI Miami Character Are You?

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This could be the iPod for me

Since the iPod came out, I've been saying that as much as I want one, I don't really need it. After all, I was very happy with my now outdated Palm Tungsten. But alas! My multimedia collection keeps on growing and growing! I think I need some help in the storage capacity department. Plus, my Tungsten's battery life has gone really crappy -- I can't even listen to music for an entire shift anymore.

One thing that has turned me off with the whole iPod thing is the fact that when it first came out, we were talking about 120G of storage! At more than Php20K, seriously, I didn't need that! That's why I'm very pleased when they started to release the 8G and 16G series. And now, I just found out that they have the new "nanochromatic" iPod nano, which includes, yes -- PURPLE!!!

I've been thinking a lot about getting an iPod and when I saw the purple one, I'm like, "This just might be the one for me!" With budget issues, I just hope I don't get an earful from my wife when I finally decide to get one! Yay! I'm pretty much waiting for the Mac Store in my favorite mall to open. When they do and they have a purple iPod nano readily available, I'll take it as a sign. I'll get that instead of the purple Sony Ericsson phone that I've been thinking of buying. Hehehe! For now, I'll just drool over this photo and wait...

My Favorite Things

More favorite todays to cheer me up. This is so not my fucking day. Anyway...

• Mushroom -- Shitake, button, oyster, portobello
• Juicy burgers
• Zagu
• Dimsum
• Arcade games
• Daytona
• NFSU2
• Yahoo! Messenger
• Trainers and sneakers
• Comfy jeans
• Cats

My Favorite Things

Over the weekend, I began writing this really long blog entry. All of a sudden, IE had an error then closed down. Alas! My composition wasn't saved. Of course, I'm not the type who can re-write her thoughts, so here I am, writing an entirely new piece. I'll try to write about it again... You see, it's a topic that is very dear to my heart...

Anyway, I just thought of listing down some of my favorite things in the world. I'm in a very good mood and I want to put it into good use by creating a list that would hopefully cheer me up when I’m pissed... So, here goes...

• Beer and pizza
• Potatoes
• Bread and butter
• Pasta
• Wine and cheese
• Vanilla ice cream
• Ice cold soda
• Rold Gold Pretzels
• Cadbury chocolates
• Isaw
• Freshly-popped buttered popcorn
• KFC
• Chinese food
• Japanese food
• Mexican food
• Italian food
• Watching crime shows
• Watching sitcoms
• Playing video games
• Surfing the net for multimedia content
• Playing trivia on IRC
• Reading magazines
• Playing with my feline siblings
• Shopping with Gem
• Drinking sprees and isaw-tripping with Tang
• Making an overseas call to Des
• Talking to Danet via SMS ‘cause she’s extra funny that way
• Going to the mall with my mom and dad
• Doing everything with my wife
• Geek talk and/or Girl talk with Patring
• Laughing with Boss AJ and Mommy Kay with their crazy stories
• Hanging out with Ry and Lucky at the bridge
• “Coffee sessions” with M
• Making lists
• Sleeping all day
• Watching TV the whole day
• DVD marathons
• Shopping for stuff I don’t really need and wondering what I need them for later
• Trying out new things
• Collecting collections
• Fantasizing about spending the money that I don’t have
• Wasting time
• Doing nothing
• Learning new things
• Playing dumb
• Taking pictures
• Planning things I’d probably never do
• Worrying about things that’ll probably never happen

Mid-week Recap

Marikina is the one place I’d always, always go back to. I lived there for nearly a year after I was a born. We had a place of business in Calumpang until I was probably a toddler. My grandmother lived there and all of my best friends live in Marikina! My favorite thing about Markina though, is the FOOD.

Today, I went to Calumpang to buy my favorite Miki-bihon guisado, bihon con lechon for my Mom and wife, and of course, lumpiang shanghai. While waiting for food order to go, I walked to the nearest Mang Frederick’s to buy several sticks of isaw. I remembered Des… I figured, we have beer when she comes home and we’ll order some isaw. I bet she misses those already, so, I took note of their mobile number. (Excited???)

Oh by the way, I also bought a lotto ticket! It’s been a while since I got one of those, I had to ask how it costs now! Crazy!

So there, that’s my adventure for today… It was nice, especially since I’m not feeling very well with this stupid cough. I think I better rest more and stop going to malls after my shift! Since last week, I’ve been going to my new favorite mall – SM City Marikina. I don’t know, but for some reason, I always go there doing some errands and other random stuff like buying lots of bread from The French Baker. Hehehe! Monday, I went there for the bank and to buy a couple of bag organizers for my wife and mom. Yesterday, I was there again to buy some groceries and dinner. Today, well, I finally went to another mall… my mom asked me to buy food for my feline siblings. I ended up buying those plus six bottles of vitamins – also known as Carlsberg Chill. Crazy, eh? Oh well, my off’s coming, so let’s just I’m preparing. J

60th Primetime Emmys Winners

For all the couch potatoes like myself...

I'm so broken-hearted

No shit... I'm crying while I'm typing this... I just found out that Billy Petersen has left his character as Gil Grissom on my favorite crime show, CSI: Crime Scene Investigation. I've been so out-of-touch interms of reading episode guides and spoilers since the end of Season 8 on AXN. Tonight, while watching the 60th Primetime Emmys rerun, William Petersen presented an award with Laurence Fishburne (Matrix's Morpheus) and he said that he's now giving him the key to lab. Fishburne thanked him and said something about living up to his character, blah blah blah... I started to feel sick... I jumped online and read all about it. The sad news was released in July! Imagine that?! I'm so sad, I don't know what to do. First, Jorja Fox left the show, then Gary Dourdan and now... Oh my gawd!!! What is happening to my world???
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The news article that broke my heart: http://ausiellofiles.ew.com/2008/07/william-peterse.html

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Jul 15, 2008, 02:42 AM | by Michael Ausiello

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You know that fancy new CSI contract that William Petersen inked last March? Turns out there was a ticking time bomb buried in the fine print: He'll be gone by midseason! And not "off too do a play" gone like he was back in 2006. No, this season's 10th episode will be his last as a full-time series regular.

"Billy is leaving," confirms the show's executive producer, Carol Mendelsohn. "But he will remain throughout the run of the series an executive producer. And he will, whenever CBS asks, come back. I don't think you've seen the last of Gil Grissom."

Neither does Petersen. In fact, in an exclusive interview conducted on July 11, the eight-year CSI vet seemed almost reluctant to characterize his departure as, um, a departure. Citing both his ongoing role as an executive producer and his intention to return on occasion as a (very special) guest star, he said, "I'm in a great place in terms of knowing that I'll be more free to make choices. And I'm responsible enough to not do it in a way that would hurt [the show].

"I want it to work for the writers, I want it to work for the cast, and, most importantly, I want it to work for the audience," he added. "I don't want them to abandon the show."

CBS has to be concerned about that, too. Although no one expects ratings to nosedive when Petersen leaves, the network's top-rated show is staring down its biggest challenge ever. His sorta swan song, coupled with Jorja Fox and Gary Dourdan's exits last season, brings to three the number of original cast members CSI will have lost in a year's time.

"This will be a year of transition for the show," concedes Mendehlson. "We always knew it was coming, and I'm glad it didn't come until now." At this point, she's confident that, like Law & Order and ER, CSI is a franchise that can weather such cast shifts. "There's never going to be another William Petersen, and there will never be another Jorja Fox," she hastens to add. "But we are not out to just replace those actors. We're out to add new characters to the show, and the show will change as a result. But that's a good thing." (For more on CSI's post-Grissom plans, click here.)

In the meantime, Mendelsohn is plotting one hell of a send-off for her leading man. Just as this is a year of transition for CSI, so too is it for Grissom. The events of last season's finale -- specifically the death of Dourdan's Warrick -- will push Grissom to the breaking point. "The easiest way to describe Grissom is 'in crisis,'" Petersen told me. "As a man. As a scientist. As a teacher. As a middle-aged person who has been very successful at what he's done... [he] wonders, 'What's the point?'

"It's all of a sudden becoming more difficult for him to do his job," he continued. "What had been a sort of fun job for him to do, because he loved the solving of the riddle, has become ever more taxing and difficult."

Helping Grissom through the crisis will be his true love, Sara, played by Fox, who is returning for multiple episodes, starting with the season premiere. While Petersen confirms that Sara will figure into Grissom's final arc, he stops just short of saying the couple will ride off into the desert together at the end of episode 10. "I wouldn't want to say exactly what we're going do -- I want people to watch, certainly," he chuckled. "But Sara is involved... It's often darkest just before the dawn."

And lest anyone read any hidden meaning into that statement, the actor reiterated, "For me, it's a really good situation. I don't want the audience to think it's not... [It isn't] like there's something going on, like 'Petersen's unhappy,' 'cause it's not true. It's quite the contrary. "

That explains why he's having trouble labeling his departure a... well, you know. "My biggest problem with leaving the show at any point isn't leaving Grissom -- I'm an actor, it's time to do other things," said the stage vet, whose first post-CSI gig will be a return to the theater -- and to Conor McPherson's play, Dublin Carol -- this fall in his hometown of Chicago. "[The hard part will be saying goodbye] to the cast and crew. [So] I'm going to stay as involved as I'm allowed to be throughout the remainder of this show. Until they turn off all the lights."

Des, Umuwi Ka Na

Come home, Des
Your girls are waiting for you
Burgers, pastas, and so much more
Fine wines and great beers, among other things
We'll talk all day and laugh all night
Like baby dykes in college
Come home, Des
Gem, Tang, Danet and I can't wait no more

Holiday Recap

It's the last day of our fabulous holiday. My birthday turned out great -- could've been better though without all the bad news, like my feline baby brother's passing a week before and Mommy Mercee (Millie's mom) being in and out of the hospital and being scheduled for a bypass.

Originally, our holiday's theme was supposed to be about doing something different. We were supposed to disappear for a few days and have one unplanned holiday getaway. That is of course very uncharacteristic of me. I hate travelling, for starters and I hate public transport, which would mean stopovers for washroom breaks in public toilets. I was all for it, though. I mean, I'm 28 -- time for me to do something different.

With my feline baby brother getting sick and being confined for six days, our budget was cut down significantly. And with Mommy Mercee being in the hospital, we can't afford to be away with all the uncertaintly. We had no choice but to go back to the drawing board and come up with Plan B. It was challenging -- planning a week-long holiday with a minimal budget and maximum fun.

I've already written about Day 1, so I'd skip that.

Day 2 was all about surprises. We went to Megamall to continue our search for the prettiest margarita glasses. We ended up buying beer steins as well! We also found a nice little place to buy bootleg videos. It had all our favorite shows! Of course, being on a budget, we had to cut down our choices to two movies and two TV shows. By the time we finished all our errands, we decided to eat at Dad's. It's been ages since we had their Ultimate Buffet. Unfortunately, it was too late and they were on their last refill. We decided to surprise my Mom instead and brought her to Old Swiss Inn in Makati. We practically hopped into a cab and did not tell her where we're going! She liked the food, which was a relief and of course, we all enjoyed the Toblerone Chocolate Fondue! From Makati, we had to make a quick stopover at Starbucks Eastwood because it was hard to get a cab that'll take us all the way home.

Day 3, my birthday, was all about relaxation. Nothing fancy for lunch, just miki-bihon guisado and fried chicken made especially for me by my beloved yaya, Ate Dolor. Later in the evening, my wife and I had a nice 2-hr massage, which we were planning to have for months now, but never got the chance to do so because it's expensive! Ugh! It was so good! I wish we can afford having a massage every other week at least! After the massage, we spent the rest of the evening playing NFSU2.

Day 4 didn't start out too well. We had to go to Borough Medical for Millie's stress test and 2D echo. Millie got stressed all right... she was too dizzy and nauseous after the stress test, we had to go home early. After a nice 3-hr nap, it was time for the much-awaited Margarita Night with my wife and mom. Was it a blast! We can't believe how economical it is to make margarita at home! I'm not sure if we'll ever order margarita in a restaurant ever again. I also cooked my favorite salmon dish with buttered rice for dinner (just for myself, though because the salmon was pricey!), afterwhich we ate the Chocolate Marjolaine my dad asked my mom to buy for me. When dinner was done, it time was to make our mean margarita. All up, we had six servings in a batch, which was just enough for watching two movies -- "Mamma Mia!" and "Wanted." It was a hilarious evening! We didn't get as drunk as we hoped, but I guess we were tipsy enough to sing "Dancing Queen" along with Meryl Streep!

Day 5's theme was "Doing Something Different." But first, we had to go to Medical City because Borough Medical wasn't equipped enough for the 2D echo. After that, we went to Megamall to just stroll -- something we haven't done in months! Nornally, the only reason why we go to the mall is to buy something for the house, pay the bills, or whatever errand we may have. It was a bit of a disappointment though... Millie and I were so pumped to go Toy Kingdom to fool around and take pictures. To my surprise, we were so fucking bored! There wasn't anything interesting, there was no toy in particular that I was obsessing on buying... we ended up walking out the store like a couple of middle-aged women, wondering what the fuck were they doing in a toy store! Now that was different! (It sucks!!!) For mirienda, we decided to eat at the Food Court. Something we haven't done for a while as well. It was interesting, for a change.

Yesterday was Day 6 -- the much-awaited family dinner at Dampa sa Libis. It was so much fun! The last time we went there was my birthday 4 years ago! Des was still here in the Philippines! They're now centralized, computerized and über-organized! The food was good as usual... as in, yum-o!

And finally, today is Day 7. The theme is about wrapping things up. I gave my hair a treat with some home hot oil treatment and now, we're having a Hannah Montana Marathon. I'm also prepping up to go back to work.

All in all, it has been one fantastic holiday. As I've mentioned, it could've been better if were able to go out-of-town and if we didn't have any bad news. But I guess it's all about making the most of what you have. I had loads of fun hanging out with my mom and my wife, doins stuff we haven't done in a long time and disconnecting from my mobile phone and my email! It was fun being "home"... if you know what I mean...

Jel's Day Holiday - Day 1

[Pictures coming soon]

Day 1 was a success over-all... Except for some unnecessary shit during the day, thanks to ________.

Millie and I woke up at 2PM after watching several episodes of 'Queer As Folk.' (I love it, by the way). After our usual routine (Translation: TV lunch), we went to the mall for a couple of errands and to buy some stuff in preparation for my special day. Well, it's nothing really speacial. We just bought a blender for Margarita Night with the wife and the mom. We then ate at Wendy's after almost a year (Can you imagine?!) then went searching for some nice margarita glasses. I was a bit pissed because the selection in the nearby malls was very limited! We then decided to visit another mall tomorrow for more options. I know, it's just margarita glasses, but hey, I'm worth the effort! And when it comes to orgasmic margarita, Millie and I are always game! Hahahaha! *Margheads!*

Anyhoo, I also received some great news from my gorgeous friend. Apparently, I no longer have to come by the office tomorrow! Hooray for me! That is just a fantastic gift any bitch can ask for!

In the evening, I played NFSU2 with our new steering wheel (Nothing fancy, just something from CDR-King), while mom watches. She got scared about me having a car. After gametime, Millie and I taught her some basic stuff about using the computer and we all had a ball. YouTube was part of the basics, of course.

Right before I went here, Millie and I continued with our 'mijeL pulls a Houdini' project. We're so fucking excited!

So that's it for me today! More to come in the next few days!!!

Mood of the season: Pissed

I'm hoping that things will get better in a few days. After all, my special day is coming up. I just need to get over some personal shit -- my brother's passing, the thought that my holiday might be ruined, my personality conflict, and how some people are fucking shitting on me.
Fuck. I can sense a wave of change is bound to happen soon. Hah! |BadGirl`JeL| is coming back for good and things will never be the same.
Too bad, so sad for those who are shitting on me! Hah!

I Don't Want To Let Go If I Have To

I wanted a gaming steering wheel for my birthday. I figured, no small party with a few friends this year -- just a box of pizza and a couple of bottles of beer for me and my wife and we'll spend two to three days playing Need for Speed Underground 2 with a cool Logitech wheel. That was my birthday gameplan until my feline brother, Kuya Taba got sick.

One day, he just stopped eating and it went on for a couple more days. He started to grow thin and weak. He won't stop crying. My Mom thought he was just asking for food after skipping a main meal. She tried offering different things -- tuna with rice, plain tuna, Friskies dry cat food, Friskies wet cat food -- all to no avail. My Mom said it's because of his gum problems. She's not as worried though be because he's still drinking a lot of water and even drinking a lot of milk.

Last week, I finally told my Mom to bring him to the vet because he won't stop crying even though his voice has become somewhat hoarse. The vet, who was amazed to know that Kuya Taba has been with us for over 10 years now (that's roughly 56 human years), said he's dehydrated. She put him on dextrose through which she also gave him antibiotics for his gums. He started to eat a little, as long as you don't give him the same kind of food for two consecutive meals. He was then confined in the vet for the next five days or so. I was looking forward to seeing him well as usual, just like when Shammy got confined for three days and gotten fat since the time she was discharged. Last Friday, I visited him and I was so surprised to see that he hasn't improved much. He still looked sick and weak.

Today, Mom brought him home. She said he hasn't eaten again and he still looks very weak, he cannot even stand. What bothers me most is the look in his eyes. They've grown deep, almost empty. Like he has gone blind. I know those eyes... I saw them before. It was exactly how DJ's eyes looked like before she passed away January this year. Even my Dad said it doesn't look like Kuya will last that long, he's very, very old. I'm deeply bothered... I'm not ready to let go of my baby boy if I have to. Millie told me to stop crying -- after all, he's still here. She also said he may be sensing that I'm sad and that wouldn't help. I know I shouldn't be feeling this way, but I'm trying my best to be realistic, to be ready, to let go if I need to. I don't think I can. He's my best boy, as much as DJ was my best girl. I can't believe I may be losing both of them this year. Yeah, I know... they're all getting old (DJ was 9 when she passed, which is around 52 in human years), but I can't help but wonder how come Ate Jules, who's the oldest of them all at over 11 years (approximately 60 human years) is still very strong and healthy. As much as I am grateful, for me it doesn't make sense.

When DJ suddenly fell ill and died three days later, my Mom and I blamed ourselves for not bringing her to the vet sooner. We feel awful because it happened during the holidays. The vet went away and DJ died the day before we meant to bring her in. To this day, I still believe that it could've made a difference. Looking at Kuya now, I feel cheated. I feel that I'm doing what I can, and yet he's here, old, tired and weak... dying. Like it wouldn't make a difference. It's weird, I thought it would feel better, but it feels just as bad.

I know not many people can understand how I feel right now. Some may even be thinking, "What's with her, getting so upset over a cat???" Well, they happen to be family. Over the years, they've become a major part of our lives. They've always been there for me... the same way one's siblings would. Kuya Taba has always been my favorite. We have a lot of memories together... 10 years worth of memories.

When I wake up later and the mornings after that, I know I'm going to be nervous each time. I don't want to wake up to see my Mom crying. I don't want to hear her say it. I don't want to let go if I have to... I've already changed my birthday gameplan. I don't need any wheel, I've decided to spend on my baby brother's vet bills instead... such a small price to pay for my baby brother's new lease in life. All I want for my birthday is for Kuya to be well... Please get well, Kuya...

New Crush

I was just watching TV... the usual. I got curious when I saw the reality show 'Shear Genius' was on. And then I saw this dyke-ish stylist, which oh-so reminded me of the great Shane McCutcheon. I had to google her up. And there I learned her name... Sally Hershberger. She's apparently this big stylist to the star. Meg Ryan's famous do, the 'Sally Shag' was her brainchild, and get this: She does hair for $800.

It was also rumored that she was in fact the inspiration for Shane McCutcheon's character. It's creepy. Not only do they have the same vibe, they look pretty similar. Now I have something new to watch... Ahhh, women... Love them.

Short-term Wishlist

1. For Mommy Mercee's heart to be ok so she can check out of the hospital.
2. For Kuya Taba's gums to heal so he can eat better and regularly. He's been confined in the vet for three days now and he has grown very weak and thin.
3. For Millie and I to be scheduled on earlier trainings so our holidays plans would not get ruined.
4. For our cable service to come back on so I can continue watching TV after working.

Wired

I'm never without my cables. Mobile phone to PC, mp3 player/flash drive/card reader to PC, external hard drive to PC, PDA to PC... I'm always connected. My cables have become my virtual umbilical cord, like a cyberlifeline -- like I would die if I ever get cut off.

Like an unborn fetus, I feed off computer and the world wide web... absorbing information, seeking for entertainment, making a connection just so I can feel alive. I love being wired.

Eventually

Eventually, I'll be ok. The voices will stop, the nausea will subside, and I will be sane again.
Until then, I'll be walking around like a hormonal zombie with the weirdest of mood swings. This too will pass, and I'll be ok again... Eventually.
Go ahead, say it over and over like a mantra. Go ahead and pehaps, you'd eventually convince yourself.

Nobody Cares What I Think

I would’ve bitched my ass off in this blog and no one would’ve noticed.  I would’ve threatened to commit a criminal act and no one would’ve cared.  No one can be bothered by my shit.

I can’t stand this.  Everything is white noise.  I just stopped caring.

It’s always show time for me.  The curtains never fall; I never get to take a bow.  Crap.

Of all the people I know who claims they are happy, I wonder how many of them is actually telling the truth.  Some people have a lot of things going for them and yet they can never be satisfied.  Then there are those people who would give their all for any semblance of happiness but all they get is shit.  And let us not forget people like me – the uncertain, the blind, those who couldn’t care less. 

I want to disappear.  I used to think I was happy.  Well, I was, until I saw the truth.  It’s the truth I couldn’t bear.  As much as I couldn’t stand it, I’m not ready to let go of the lies.  The signs have always been there; I just ignored them all.  I tried to cope.  I even developed an understanding for people’s addiction.  I have my own.  I changed.  Shit, I was such a fucking sell out.  I’m turning into them.  Disgusting.

I’m just grateful that I have someone – my own personal shrink.  I just wish she can also give me drugs.  Hahaha.  A virtual laugh – even that was fake.  How frustrating.

This is all too weird for me.  I sincerely thought I have found a sense of stability.  Turns out, I don’t know myself too well.  What a surprise.  I mean, does anybody?  Well, people tend to assume they do… assume or pretend, I’m not sure.  Either way, they would eventually sabotage themselves.  Classic.  Not only am I a sell out, I’m become stereotypical.

In the meantime, just smile.  It apparently helps stop the gag reflex.

Millie and Jel's Relationship: Explained

My wife and I laughed to death while reading this. It was like reading about our life! I bet our friends will agree once they read this... =)
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Your compatibility

The following personality types have been compared:

Groundbreaking Thinker: extroverted, theoretical, logical, spontaneous, rational, innovative, intellectual, open, independent, curious, enterprising, analytical, clever, enthusiastic, venturesome, inventive, energetic, sociable, optimistic, non-conformist, creative, freedom-loving, charming, able to get enthusiastic, self-confident, communicative, capricious, inconsistent, outgoing

Independent Thinker: introverted, theoretical, logical, planning, rational, independent, intellectual, self-confident, analytical, structured, dogged, witty, resolute, self-critical, visionary, inventive, independent, unsociable, reserved, nonconformist, quiet, visionary, honest, demanding, hardworking

Compatibility analysis

You have two type preferences in common, which still guarantees a good deal of similarity in many ways (and therefore a comfortable relationship). On the other hand, you have to handle more or less serious conflicts which usually arise from your differences on the other two preferences. Try to balance the joys and frustrations of your partnership and bear in mind that learning from each other is more helpful than fighting each other!

Your different social needs may create some frustrations in your relationship. While the introverted partner is content to maintain a small group of close friends and likes to spend a lot of time on his own, often lost in his thoughts, the extroverted partner desperately hungers for contact, social interaction and being engaged in a variety of activities. The extroverted may feel frustrated by his partner‘s need to retreat from everyone - even from the one he loves. The introverted, in return, may be overwhelmed by his partner‘s quick and sometimes impatient way of communication. So you both tend to end up in a cat-and-mouse game: the extroverted chasing the introverted, constantly asking questions like „how do you feel?“, „a penny for your thoughts!“ or „do you still love me?“ ... Try to respect these differences rather than to fight them and learn to appreciate your partner‘s special strenghts as a potential completion of yours.

The sharing of the second preference - „intuition“ - guarantees a very special intellectual connection between the two of you. You are both driven by a unique perspective and a vision of how the world could be. Hours will pass unnoticed, while you plunge into deep discussions about your ideas, theories, possibilities, the meaning of life, and a thousand other things - these are usually your best times together. You love and admire each other‘s creativity and ingenuity and never fail to inspire each other. Since neither of you pays close attention to routine or mundane details, practical matters such as paying bills, maintaining the home or taking the car to the long-overdue inspection may often be neglected - but who cares! You are perfectly happy together in your world full of stimulating and challenging debates and fantasies and don‘t give a damn about everyday bits and pieces.

As you share the third type preference - „thinking“ - you both favor decisions that are made in a logical and objective way. Neither of you is easily offended, so you may speak your minds honestly and can usually receive constructive criticism in the spirit in which it is intended. No need to „walk on eggs“ to avoid hurting each others‘ feelings! On the contrary, both of you enjoy good-natured teasing and neither of you takes it personally, you even like the sometimes competitive aspect of your relationship. If necessary, both of you are able to make tough decisions, and unless you are very stressed, you both tend to remain calm, unemotional and objective even during heated and stimulated discussions - a great base for a respectful and enduring relationship as conflicts can be solved in a very solution oriented way.

The difference between you regarding the fourth type preference is the source of probably most of your day-to-day conflicts. While the „judging“ one has a strong need for order, in-time management of things and accountability, the „perceiving“ one doesn‘t give a damn about clutter on the kitchen counter, overdue bills or the piles of cloth in the bedroom. This can cause constant frustration on both sides: the judging one feels irritated by the way the perceiving one makes promises he can‘t keep, leaves projects half-finished and constantly messes up rooms and plans. In return, the perceiving one often feels critized and nagged about details he sees as irrelevant or silly and sometimes resists plans and organization simply to fight the idea of being stuck in a cage. Try to find a compromise to reduce the annoying little fights and debates resulting from this difference: meet halfway between the spontaneous chaos of the perceiving and the strict order of the judging one and keep in mind that none of you wants to offend the other deliberately by his behaviour.

Now This Is A Very Precise (and rather creepy) Description of Millie's Personality

Independent Thinker (IT)

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Independent Thinkers are analytical and witty persons. They are normally self-confident and do not let themselves get worked up by conflicts and criticism. They are very much aware of their own strengths and have no doubts about their abilities. People of this personality type are often very successful in their career as they have both competence and purposefulness. Independent Thinkers are excellent strategists; logic, systematics and theoretical considerations are their world. They are eager for knowledge and always endeavour to expand and perfect their knowledge in any area which is interesting for them. Abstract thinking comes naturally to them; scientists and computer specialists are often of this type.

Independent Thinkers are specialists in their area. The development of their ideas and visions is important to them; they love being as flexible as possible and, ideally, of being able to work alone because they often find it a strain having to make their complex trains of thought understandable to other people. Independent Thinkers cannot stand routine. Once they consider an idea to be good it is difficult to make them give it up; they pursue the implementation of that idea obstinately and persistently, also in the face of external opposition.

Independent Thinkers are not the type who easily comes out of his shell. Speaking about their emotional life is also not one of their strong points. Anyway, social relationships are not particularly important to them; they are happy with just a few, close friends who find it easy to share their intellectual world. They find it difficult to establish new ties. In love, they need a lot of space and independence but this does not mean that their partner is not important to them. Independent Thinkers often make a cool and reserved impression on others; but this impression is deceptive: they can hardly bear it if people close to them should reject them. They prefer a harmonious, balanced relationship with a partner who shares their interests and with whom they can realise their visions.

Adjectives which describe your type

introverted, theoretical, logical, planning, rational, independent, intellectual, self-confident, analytical, structured, dogged, witty, resolute, self-critical, visionary, inventive, independent, unsociable, reserved, nonconformist, quiet, visionary, honest, demanding, hardworking

These subjects could interest you

art, jazz, classical music, science fiction, computer, drawing/painting, spiritual matters, meditation, handicraft, writing, strategic games, politics

Now This Is A Very Precise (and rather creepy) Description of Millie's Personality

Independent Thinker (IT)

(Just visiting? Take the free personality test and determine your iPersonic type!)

Independent Thinkers are analytical and witty persons. They are normally self-confident and do not let themselves get worked up by conflicts and criticism. They are very much aware of their own strengths and have no doubts about their abilities. People of this personality type are often very successful in their career as they have both competence and purposefulness. Independent Thinkers are excellent strategists; logic, systematics and theoretical considerations are their world. They are eager for knowledge and always endeavour to expand and perfect their knowledge in any area which is interesting for them. Abstract thinking comes naturally to them; scientists and computer specialists are often of this type.

Independent Thinkers are specialists in their area. The development of their ideas and visions is important to them; they love being as flexible as possible and, ideally, of being able to work alone because they often find it a strain having to make their complex trains of thought understandable to other people. Independent Thinkers cannot stand routine. Once they consider an idea to be good it is difficult to make them give it up; they pursue the implementation of that idea obstinately and persistently, also in the face of external opposition.

Independent Thinkers are not the type who easily comes out of his shell. Speaking about their emotional life is also not one of their strong points. Anyway, social relationships are not particularly important to them; they are happy with just a few, close friends who find it easy to share their intellectual world. They find it difficult to establish new ties. In love, they need a lot of space and independence but this does not mean that their partner is not important to them. Independent Thinkers often make a cool and reserved impression on others; but this impression is deceptive: they can hardly bear it if people close to them should reject them. They prefer a harmonious, balanced relationship with a partner who shares their interests and with whom they can realise their visions.

Adjectives which describe your type

introverted, theoretical, logical, planning, rational, independent, intellectual, self-confident, analytical, structured, dogged, witty, resolute, self-critical, visionary, inventive, independent, unsociable, reserved, nonconformist, quiet, visionary, honest, demanding, hardworking

These subjects could interest you

art, jazz, classical music, science fiction, computer, drawing/painting, spiritual matters, meditation, handicraft, writing, strategic games, politics