If

If having a job is like having a significant other, I've been such a lousy lover -- a rather unfaithful lover at that.

I always think about other jobs, I haven't been performing well, I've been making a lot of excuses, and I've been fantasizing a whole lot about leaving.

If only I could be as happy with my job as I am with my wife, my life will be way easier...

Trailer: The Night Listener

Here's another movie that I've been waiting to be released. Well, it's because Sandra Oh is in it. Seems like a double treat though because it's a Robin Williams film as well. (Hehehe!)

Trailer: The Devil Wears Prada

I've been trying so hard to read the darn book but just can't! Nonetheless, I love it, love it, love it and was so thrilled to hear that it'll be made into a movie. I was all the more excited when I learned that Meryl Streep and Anne Hathaway will play Miranda Priestley and Andrea Sachs, respectively. Imagine my added excitement when I found out that Tracie Thoms (who played Joanne Jefferson in the film version of RENT) will be playing Lily (Andrea's best friend). So there, I've been waiting since and was so happy when I found this trailer in YouTube. Can't wait to see it!!! :) Hope you enjoy this trailer!!!

Missin' Bloggin'

I can't believe it's almost an entire month that I haven't posted anything in my blog.  The weird thing is that I've been dying to write a lot things down but never got the chance to really sit down and organize my thoughts so they may be good enough to be written down.  Now, I'm just trying this post-by-email thing to see how the formatting will go so I can post more.  Sometimes, I wish I can have all the time in the world to sit in a Starbucks with a nice laptop and type my days away.  I've longed to finish my short story for a couple of years now that my ideas are starting to get stale.  Funny how when I used to work from home, I thought then I had all the time in the world but never really took the time to write what I want.  I guess I'm wrong in thinking that I never have the time. Maybe I've always had the time... it was me who never made it mine... 

Same o' Same o'... Well, not so

Work is still kinda fun... but the "upward inflection" thing is taking a toll at my freaking throat!!! I've been coughing like hell since last week and this morning, I nearly lost my voice completely. I'm down to this creepy, hoarse voice. So as usual, I'm under medication again. WHAT'S NEW?

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Anywho, I'm a bit bitchy about certain people in my life. Apart from that one person with whom I'm supposedly very close to, we're almost family, who's been lying to my face, a certain someone just seem to have changed overnight and I'm not really sure who she is now. On the flipside, there are those people I thought I could be close to, but then I realize they're just a bunch of happy, shallow people and so I take a step back and just observe them all from a distance. And how can I forget that one person who seems to remember me when everything has gone bad in her life and disappears when things get awfully busy. There goes another universal fact, I guess... friendship sucks sometimes but nonetheless, it's so damn hard to live without those crazy people you call FRIENDS...

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Filipinos are so lousy at following simple rules, like where to cross and where not to cross the street, for instance. My wife realized that we even have to be treated like hamsters or lab rats by putting up high barricades an fences just to keep us from crossing the busy highways, which could be really life-threatening if you think about it. We're so lousy at following such simple instructions that signs aren't enough. Hay talaga nga naman... ONLI IN DA PILIPINS!!!

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I have a new-found addiction... I love Grey's Anatomy! I'm even starting to fall in love with Dr. Cristina Yang, played by Sandra Oh. Actually, I'm still deciding if I'm falling in love with Cristina or Sandra! Lolz She's one hell of a bad-ass rider chick, with super smarts and a hot personality to match! Tell me... how can I not fall in love with a woman like that?! Tell me!!!

Happy and Gay Jelaine

My name is Jelaine. I'm lesbian. I've been in a very committed relationship since the year 2000. I was never discreet about my homosexuality even as a teenager, but I don't wear it around my neck like some sort of a cowbell. I come out to people on a need-to-know basis, oftentimes in a very casual manner. For me, being a lesbian is just a part of who I am, but I'm not all that. It's not a big deal, really – just as natural as having blue eyes and blond hair, both of which I obviously don't have.

I'm not a big fan of role-playing. Though I have tons of butch and soft butch friends, I personally hate how other people would make a big deal out of who's-butch-who's-femme and the "appropriate roles" they're expected to play. My partner and I started to live together only six months into the relationship. Though she admits to being a soft butch, we've always shared the responsibilities 50-50 since Day 1. Personally, that's the mature way of handling things and expecting the butch or the soft butch to be "the man of the house" is just plain bullshit. In fact, the entire idea about lesbians wanting to be men or being "men trapped in a woman's body" is a load of crap. I know it happens, but FYI, that's an entirely different condition (Hint: Transgender, Transsexual, MTF, FTM, Gender dysphoria). Being a lesbian for me is just about being a woman loving another woman. Being femme or butch or soft butch are all orientations – a way of handling ourselves, a preferred way of wearing clothes or having our hair done. But deep inside, we're just as feminine as any other woman… Truly, 100% all-natural women!

Extreme Jelaine (not the sporty kind)

My name is Jelaine. Different people call me by different names; I don't really mind having all those nicknames as long as no one bastardizes my real name. One of my nicknames is |BadGirl`JeL|, which I created as my IRC handle almost half a decade ago. True enough, a lot of people think of me as a bitch. Again, I don't mind. I don't have any political aspiration whatsoever, nor do I plan to join any popularity contest in this lifetime. What I find most important is that I know what I'm all about and that I'm never pretentious of everything that I am. Though I admit to being a bad girl and a smart ass bitch, I don't believe in "living up to the name." One thing about me that a lot of people might find surprising is that I have such an extreme personality. As much as I enjoy being rude and mean, I also know when to shut up, listen and just do what's right. I've always believed that being a bad girl is not about breaking the rules or being intentionally difficult. It's about being yourself, knowing what you want and how to get it – and that is, without having to violate others.

So don't be surprised if one day, you hear me talking trashy, using cuss words as some sort of punctuation in my foul sentences and the next day, you hear me doing some baby talk, speaking fondly about my family and friends. 'Cause you see, that’s just the way I am. And really, I'm not that hard to get. Most of the time, I'm easy to get along with – just try not to piss me off 'cause trust me, that's an entirely different story…