Weekend Rant and Rave

I've been busy as hell for the past couple of weeks... and as much as I would like to slow down even for a bit, I've decided that I'll continue to strive until auditing, calibrating, coaching, training and scheduling have all become second nature to me.

I've recently taken some sort of leap of fate. Sometimes, when I wake up in the morning all tired and still groggy, I ask myself -- "Why the hell did I choose this?!" Yesterday, when I realized a major mistake that I have made, which was brought about by the fact that I was never good with math, I nearly fainted in front of my peers and again, I asked myself, "What the fuck am I doing here?!" When I forget things or do something awfully silly, I can't help but wonder, "What made me think that I can do this?"

Again, contrary to popular belief, I am not as confident as I seem. A lot of times, I don't even know what I'm capable of doing and I'm often doubtful of what strengths and talents I possess but I'm also certain about the things I cannot do or the challenges I can never handle. It is because of those people who believe in me that I survive... My Mom, my Dad, my wife, my friends and most recently, my peers at work. I hope someday they'll know hot grateful I am for all the support that they've been giving me, for all the help and the guidance that they never fail to offer. Not once have I planned to give them something, a token of sorts to show my appreciation but of course, I would never want to appear like I'm kissing ass or something -- as you know, that's never my style. Well, I guess I'll just wait until the holidays or something -- but that is, IF I ever survive until the holidays! Hahahaha!