Envy

I just realized that I envy those people who always get what they want, regardless of how they get them.

I envy them because I’m not the type of person who’ll always do “whatever it takes” to get something.  Oftentimes, I’m not ambitious enough to step outside my comfort zone to just get out there and grab what I want.  As I’ve said before, I have my moments of shyness and insecurity – unsure of what I can and cannot do, so I just wait for things to happen for me and credit them to “It’s not meant to be” if they never do.

I envy those people who can get away with murder and know it – those people who are bitchy and cocky enough to wallow in the fact that no matter how mean they are, they’d still be the life of the party the next day.  I wonder how those people could live with themselves…  Oh well, if it works for them, so be it… Good for them.  As for me, well, green is so not my color! Hahahaha!  J