A Very Precise (and rather creepy) Description of My Personality

Groundbreaking Thinker (GT)

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Groundbreaking Thinkers are charming, enthusiastic persons. They really bubble over with energy and like to take centre stage. They love variety both professionally and privately. Groundbreaking Thinkers tackle changes consistently with their optimism and firm belief in their own abilities; they are always on the look-out for improvement possibilities. Their excellent communication skills are of great advantage to them here. They approach the world with curiosity and openness and master new situations with a great deal of talent for improvising and with resourcefulness. Their spare time is taken up with a large number of hobbies; most Groundbreaking Thinkers like to travel in order to gather as many different impressions as possible. This personality type is unbeatable at discovering new possibilities.

In their work, Groundbreaking Thinkers highly rate challenges and diversified tasks. They cannot stand routine and too detailed work. They love to astound others with bold ideas for an original, new project and then leave it up to the others to implement them. Hierarchies, rules and regulations arouse their opposition and they love outsmarting the system. It is vital to them that they enjoy their work; if this is the case, they quickly become pure workaholics. Their creativity best takes effect when they work independently; but they are very good at motivating others and infecting them with their optimistic nature. Conceptual or advisory activities appeal especially to Groundbreaking Thinkers. It can happen that some people feel somewhat duped by their flexible, spontaneous nature.

Their sociability and enterprise ensure that Groundbreaking Thinkers always have a large circle of friends and acquaintances in which activity plays an important role. As they are mostly in a good mood, they are popular and very welcome guests. Grumbling and peevishness are unknown to them. However, they do tend to be a little erratic and unstable when it comes to obligations and this makes them appear to be unreliable to some. Groundbreaking Thinkers are very critical and demanding when it comes to picking a partner because they look for the ideal relationship and have a very concrete picture of this ideal relationship. Mutual aims in life are very important to them. They do not like compromising and would rather remain alone. For the partner, it is often a challenge to have a long-term relationship with a Groundbreaking Thinker. Groundbreaking Thinkers need a lot of space and diversity or otherwise they become bored and feel cramped. Types who are rather more traditionalistic often have problems with the willingness of Groundbreaking Thinkers to take risks and their often crazy, spontaneous actions. However, if one can summon up sufficient flexibility and tolerance for them, one will never be bored in their presence and will always have a loyal and faithful partner.

What to do, what to do...

It's a weird feeling I'm having right now. How do I reconcile these identities?

Who I am
Who I want to be
Who I need to be

This is fucking crazy! Shit... I need an ice cold bottle of beer...

Goodbye, Bernard

It's so easy for us to joke about life and death.

When we finally see someone who has gone AWOL from our lives for some time, we say "O, buhay ka pa pala." with a hint of sarcasm. When things get tough and we feel like enough is enough, it's so easy to say, "Hay nako, patayin n'yo na lang ako!" in resignation.

Some months ago, when I ask my co-worker Bernard how he was, we would normally tell me, "Eto, buhay pa." And for Bernard, that is not a joke.

For the past year, Bernard battled with cancer and won... Or so we thought. Yesterday morning, Al Bernard Barrozo passed away. For some reason, I felt cheated.

Bernard is, well, was popular in the office. He's a tall, loud man with lots of friends. He's friendly and very easy to talk to. Everyone was so shocked when we first learned he had cancer. Everything happened so fast... from some mouth sores, they started announcing that he needs blood donors. I never really knew what his condition was but they said it's a rare form of blood cancer. He grew thin and weak. We thought that was it.

After a few months, he came back to work. He was also back to being his funny self with a smile for everyone he meets. I was proud of him. As much as he was thankful that he's still alive, he lived his life with hopes of having a future. He wanted to do well to get promoted, even wanted to get married and start a family. I liked that. I thought that was very brave of him.

Some time in June, he started losing his voice and always had tonsilitis. He also told me about swollen lymph nodes and a biopsy. I knew that wasn't good, but as always, I was hopeful. Until one day, my partner and I just noticed that he hasn't been around and that he's on LOA again. Yesterday morning, it happened.

In the next few days, his VB family will be visiting him. No, not in a hospital just like before, but in a place where we'll see him for the last time and say our goodbyes.

I'm glad to have known him. I'm honored to have learned something from him about life and death. Yes, life is precious and it can go by so fast. But death, no matter how close you come to it, should not kill you and your future until it actually does. Live, dream, love and hope. It ain't over until it's really over.

Goodbye, Bernard. Your VB family will never forget you.

I need a gadget fun

I've been feeling awfully strange lately. I can't seem to stop thinking about spending the disposable income i do not have. Sometimes, i want something. Other times, i want EVERY-FUCKING-THING. I'm having a serious attack of the latter. Will i buy a laptop? Will i get a Neo or an Asus or something more expensive? Will i buy an ipod or a psp or a wii or a bigger tv? It's driving me insane! If only i can get hold of extra cash, if only i can stop being a responsible adult... Haaay, irritating!!!

I need a gadget fun

I've been feeling awfully strange lately. I can't seem to stop thinking about spending the disposable income i do not have. Sometimes, i want something. Other times, i want EVERY-FUCKING-THING. I'm having a serious attack of the latter. Will i buy a laptop? Will i get a Neo or an Asus or something more expensive? Will i buy an ipod or a psp or a wii or a bigger tv? It's driving me insane! If only i can get hold of extra cash, if only i can stop being a responsible adult... Haaay, irritating!!!

It's A Minute World After All

Since the dawn of Friendster, MySpace, Multiply and Facebook, we have become more and more aware as to how small the world really is. In fact, it no longer surprise us to learn that someone we know from childhood is in fact related to our new group of friends as an adult. Six degrees of separation has become an everyday concept that we barely give shit about it.

One boring day, I recent conversation that revealed this concept was playing in my head. I thought, yeah, it's such a small world... Who would've thought, right?. But what amazes is that normally, this thing, this "oh my god, it's such a small world" revelation happens with people you're not really that close with. But I was a bit surprised when I realized that there are way too many relationship trails between my partner and myself, considering that we barely have anything in common in our past. I figured, we're really meant for each other! That's not sweet... that's creepy! Hahahaha! Anyway, here are the connections that we've discovered throughout the years:

1. Millie has a high school friend, who turned out to be one of my best friend's cousin
2. Millie has a college classmate who turned out to be a cousin of one of my best friend's cousin (from the other side of the family)
3. Millie has a basketball teammate whose ex-girlfriend was also an ex-girlfriend of one of my best friends
4. Millie has a high school batchmate who turned out to be my colleague's ex-girlfriend
5. Millie has a high school batchmate who has a little brother with whom I worked with in my former company together with his ex-girlfriend, who now has a baby, which turned out to be fathered by our officemate
6. Millie has a high school friend whose ex-boyfriend was also an ex-boyfriend of my former officemate
7. My former boss turned out to be Millie's batchmate in college -- same course
   

I think what made these connections remarkable is the fact that we don't have any school in common, we weren't even of the same age and we're geographically far apart from each other until we became a couple!

Seriously, we must be really made for each other! Hahahaha!

Introducing: South Park Jel and Jel Simpson

This is me complaining... you know, standard bitching and swearing about nothing and no one in particular.

This is me smiling oh-so sweetly but don't be deceived. There's a lot more going on inside my head than what my smile is telling...

Oh my gawd! Jel Simpson is so fucking chunky, she almost looks a bit too butch!!! I bet she would've appeared in the episode, "There Something About Marrying" where Homer served as minister to wed a gay couple and one of Marge's sister came out as a lezzy! Crazy!!! Hahahaha! =)